A quarter of a Century

This coming Sunday I turn..do I dare say it... 25...twenty five... a quarter of a century... the big 2 and 5... wow ... In the last couple of months I have been thinking about this over and over again.. What have I learned in these last 25 years ? And this is what I have came up with ... I have learned that there is no love that compares to a mothers love... My mom has been my rock in these last 25 years... she has raised me into the young woman you see today... She has instilled values, class, and morals that I will have with me for the rest of my life and one day when God blesses me with children I will more than honored to pass down to them. My mom has been my mother and father. She has raised me all by herself, with only the help of a very gracious God ... I have learned that with out God... nothing comes out right... God knows what he wants for me and has open more than enough doors to get me to where he wants me to be. I has blessed with more than I could have ever imagined... He has held me when I didn't think I deserved his embrace .. ... I learned to love. I learned that you can get over a break up and move on... I learned that you have never fully loved until you have loved a dog. Chacho and Stella astonish me about how much love they can give out. Chacho is my brat he is my first baby he holds me heart in his tiny paw... he had me from the first wet kiss... but the love Stella gives out ...OMG... there is no comparisson .. she has taught me that no matter what has happened in the past you forgive forget and move on and love like you have never been hurt before... I have learned that there are friends that no matter the distance, the time, the circumstance... are always there, to talk, to hold you, to make you laugh, to hold your hand when you are scared, and will always have your best interest at hand... I learned that no matter how long it takes the truth will always come out so might as well tell the truth.. I learned that gaining someone's trust is crucial and losing it is detremental ... I learned that it doesn't take a lot of money to make someone's day, month, or year it just takes a whole lot of love and attention .. Not to sweat the small stuff it all works out in the end. A broken heart has never killed anyone. I learned that we are only given one body so might as well make the best of what God gave us. My body is the temple of God, I should treat it as such. To lose weight there is no magic diet ... all it takes it a whole lot of exercise and eating right... To be forgiven you first have to learn to forgive yourself. There is no use holding on to drama because you never know what might happen tomorrow... Never forget to tell someone how much you love them because they might not be here tomorrow. Never go to bed angry it leads to nasty nightmares... Life is not about name brands or money or what you wear.. its about being humble doing right... and pleasing God and showing people how much they mean to you... I am blessed to have an awesome gracious God, to have an awesome mom, to have found an awesome man to call my love, and to have 2 furbabies that love me to death. And blessed i am to have friends that know me better then I know myself and will support me in anyway they can... Thank you for being awesome friends .... ;D

Really?

Once again I am slapped back into reality... when you think someone is changing or will have a change of heart you are slapped back into reality.. This brings back to an awesome post that a friend put up a few months ago ...

Want to get on my nerves? Tell everyone on FB that you're a blessed Christian, yet spew venom about people to make it sound as if you're "holier than thou" self is telling the truth.

To those that help others unconditionally, with no publicity agenda and quietly pray at night, you have my 120% support.

This is how exactly I feel at the moment. I don'd understand these people. Christianity is not about putting up a front for certain people but under the table you are doing far worse. WE are all brothers and sisters and need to act as such. There is no need to nastyness against a person. No matter what they did to you or didnt do for you.

My Friday the 13th

At the beginning of lunch today... I was in my car driving down Louisiana St getting ready to turn on to Texas and something caught my eye. I saw a black homeless man in hands with a clean cut white man... they held hands as they prayed ... it was a sight to see... I don't know who needed more healing... sometimes we see a person and we prejudge ... I joined their prayer from a far... I asked God for some healing ... I like that God always has different mediums of bringing you back to him... whether its sights...sounds... he's always there .. through out your day ... Just thought I would share ;D

Super Weekend lol

This weekend by far has been one of the greatest weekends of this year. I did sooo much starting with they Dynamo Game on Friday. You have not gone to a Dynamo game until you watch the game with the battalion it was AWESOME ! Heck lets just say it IT WAS LEGENDARY! LOL! .... So much energy and happy people... I love that energy because I feed off it and I become SUPER HAPPY ANA... That High Is Awesome! I met some great people ;D yay! After the game I ran home and got all sassy up and went out with the girls for Ale's Bday ...it was awesome even though I only got to karaoke for about 5 mins and then we headed to Tropicana ... Omg you dont know how much I needed to dance... Helen knows lol! I needed that ..I've been a homebody for tooo long My body yearns for party! lol! After that I went home ...slept til 8 am got up went to Walmart and bought the things to make a new idea of a diaper cake... it turn out awesome for my friend Nicole's baby... Baby Matthew..after I was done with the diaper cake I got dressed and went to the new 24 hour fitness gym in Rice Village... it is HUGE .... this was also the first time I went to a Zumba toning class (Zumba but with weights) lets just say I'm still sore... after Zumba I ran home took a shower and headed to the Baby Shower...super far but worth it ... Baby Matthew is due in only a few weeks eekkk can't wait... ok after Baby Shower I went to costco bought the little ones some chicken jerky ran home to meet david's sister mom and grandma for dinner we went to Mia Bella's ... it was an hour and a half wait to be seated but worth it ... Awesome food great company... We got back by 11 and lets just say I laid on my bed and crashed my body could no longer stand it ... I over worked it... Sunday I woke up late at 10 am... this is late for me believe me lol... went to zumba with Alba which everyone should know its never dull or easy she has soooo much energy .... so small but so much energy lol .... got home crashed had lunch at shake and steak or steak and shake I dont remember correct me if Im wrong lol.... went home and crashed a little bit more... studied a little... then went to see Water for elephants... The movie was GOOD but the BOOK WAS 1000 TIMES BETTER... I loved this weekend... I was able to hang out with people that I've missed dearly and dont worry summer is only 2 weekends away! Ana is ready to PARTY and party we shall ! ;D! wow I just got tired all over again just writing this ! How was ur weekend?

Estella mi vida mi nina mi amor

When I first met stella she became the part of my girl dog club when I volunteered at the hspca ..it was stella, mrs. bear, and dakota kota ..omg dakota was crazy these girls captured my heart by their docile personalities ...little by little estella started tugging at my heart more than the other dogs ... In her eyes I could see love and the need to love back ... Last week I was drained by thr fact that she was not with me without her home her bed her brother without her love ... Today as we celebrate her bday we give thanks for her heart and her unconditonal love she gives to each of us and even my friends ... She loves having company she receives everyone with a wag and a smile ... Thank u all for the bday wishes for my love ... Stella sends u all a sloppy kiss

I Did What?!

As I have matured with the years, I look back at the young naive girl I was during high school and the young woman I was right after high school. And I look back and laugh... I laugh at all the stuff I would believe and what I thought was real. Boy were always my weakness growing up... I believe too much and I said too much and I gave too much. As I remember all the crock they used to tell me and how I would trust their word with all my heart. I just want to go back and time and fight for myself to be respected. I want to take that girl and shake her and hold her and say this is not the truth is nothing but a piece of crock they are saying to see what you are willing to give. I've actually learned so much from those experience It has made me the woman I am today. I am no longer naive, I am no longer weak.. I now know that if I want respect I have to first respect myself and then demand others respect for me. I no longer believe the bs they say. I now play devils advocate. I want my children to learn from my mistakes but I dont know if I will shield them completely that way I would like. One person told me a long time a good... A smart person learns from their mistakes but an even smarter person learns from someone elses mistakes. Through all my mistakes I came out on the winning side... I am an independent woman...

Amazing How we Get Attached

Last night I realized how easily we get attached to someone, somedog or something. Yesterday Chacho and I were hurting We missed Stella so much. Chacho was so sad that he spent most of the evening in his kennel. If you know that little man well you will know that he thinks of that thing as the time out chair...but last night he walked to it lifted up his little paw open the door walked in and curled up. It was the saddest thing to see. He missed her so much. If you ever spend a day with us you will hear these three phrases about every 30 mins ... Chacho Gentle... Chacho Leave her alone... Chacho no! They have this game where they hunt each other they turn that apt into their running field.. Chacho some way or another always comes out to be the winner because if he doesnt and Stella wins he gets angry and growls ... I always say.. Chacho you sore loser. Chacho and Stella have been joined at the hip even if they are always play fighting. When I first got stella... chacho became a bit jealous like i guess every big brother would ... even to the point of getting on the bed right above where she was stretched out taking a nap and jumping on her stomach and also Chacho wanted to hump her all the time (this still goes on smh) she snapped at him once and he left her alone. So afterwards stella fell in love with her big tiny brother... She is the one who every morning wakes up chacho walks to her and she cleans the morning yikke off his eyes... she mothers him and he well indulges ... 3 mins later they begin the chases .... this is every morning.. They have not been apart for a long period of time... I think the longest time they have been apart has been one night when stella had to stay at the vet for her heartworm treatments(i'm telling you this kid has gone through alot) ...and chacho was beside himself... We still have 2 days in a half to go on this supposeded punishment and well lets see how we will hang... This morning chacho had to be left alone something he has not endure in a very long time .... It will be hard but we will get through this... even if its him in a kennel and me in my bed curled up wishing the days go by faster.