A quarter of a Century

This coming Sunday I turn..do I dare say it... 25...twenty five... a quarter of a century... the big 2 and 5... wow ... In the last couple of months I have been thinking about this over and over again.. What have I learned in these last 25 years ? And this is what I have came up with ... I have learned that there is no love that compares to a mothers love... My mom has been my rock in these last 25 years... she has raised me into the young woman you see today... She has instilled values, class, and morals that I will have with me for the rest of my life and one day when God blesses me with children I will more than honored to pass down to them. My mom has been my mother and father. She has raised me all by herself, with only the help of a very gracious God ... I have learned that with out God... nothing comes out right... God knows what he wants for me and has open more than enough doors to get me to where he wants me to be. I has blessed with more than I could have ever imagined... He has held me when I didn't think I deserved his embrace .. ... I learned to love. I learned that you can get over a break up and move on... I learned that you have never fully loved until you have loved a dog. Chacho and Stella astonish me about how much love they can give out. Chacho is my brat he is my first baby he holds me heart in his tiny paw... he had me from the first wet kiss... but the love Stella gives out ...OMG... there is no comparisson .. she has taught me that no matter what has happened in the past you forgive forget and move on and love like you have never been hurt before... I have learned that there are friends that no matter the distance, the time, the circumstance... are always there, to talk, to hold you, to make you laugh, to hold your hand when you are scared, and will always have your best interest at hand... I learned that no matter how long it takes the truth will always come out so might as well tell the truth.. I learned that gaining someone's trust is crucial and losing it is detremental ... I learned that it doesn't take a lot of money to make someone's day, month, or year it just takes a whole lot of love and attention .. Not to sweat the small stuff it all works out in the end. A broken heart has never killed anyone. I learned that we are only given one body so might as well make the best of what God gave us. My body is the temple of God, I should treat it as such. To lose weight there is no magic diet ... all it takes it a whole lot of exercise and eating right... To be forgiven you first have to learn to forgive yourself. There is no use holding on to drama because you never know what might happen tomorrow... Never forget to tell someone how much you love them because they might not be here tomorrow. Never go to bed angry it leads to nasty nightmares... Life is not about name brands or money or what you wear.. its about being humble doing right... and pleasing God and showing people how much they mean to you... I am blessed to have an awesome gracious God, to have an awesome mom, to have found an awesome man to call my love, and to have 2 furbabies that love me to death. And blessed i am to have friends that know me better then I know myself and will support me in anyway they can... Thank you for being awesome friends .... ;D

Really?

Once again I am slapped back into reality... when you think someone is changing or will have a change of heart you are slapped back into reality.. This brings back to an awesome post that a friend put up a few months ago ...

Want to get on my nerves? Tell everyone on FB that you're a blessed Christian, yet spew venom about people to make it sound as if you're "holier than thou" self is telling the truth.

To those that help others unconditionally, with no publicity agenda and quietly pray at night, you have my 120% support.

This is how exactly I feel at the moment. I don'd understand these people. Christianity is not about putting up a front for certain people but under the table you are doing far worse. WE are all brothers and sisters and need to act as such. There is no need to nastyness against a person. No matter what they did to you or didnt do for you.

My Friday the 13th

At the beginning of lunch today... I was in my car driving down Louisiana St getting ready to turn on to Texas and something caught my eye. I saw a black homeless man in hands with a clean cut white man... they held hands as they prayed ... it was a sight to see... I don't know who needed more healing... sometimes we see a person and we prejudge ... I joined their prayer from a far... I asked God for some healing ... I like that God always has different mediums of bringing you back to him... whether its sights...sounds... he's always there .. through out your day ... Just thought I would share ;D

Super Weekend lol

This weekend by far has been one of the greatest weekends of this year. I did sooo much starting with they Dynamo Game on Friday. You have not gone to a Dynamo game until you watch the game with the battalion it was AWESOME ! Heck lets just say it IT WAS LEGENDARY! LOL! .... So much energy and happy people... I love that energy because I feed off it and I become SUPER HAPPY ANA... That High Is Awesome! I met some great people ;D yay! After the game I ran home and got all sassy up and went out with the girls for Ale's Bday ...it was awesome even though I only got to karaoke for about 5 mins and then we headed to Tropicana ... Omg you dont know how much I needed to dance... Helen knows lol! I needed that ..I've been a homebody for tooo long My body yearns for party! lol! After that I went home ...slept til 8 am got up went to Walmart and bought the things to make a new idea of a diaper cake... it turn out awesome for my friend Nicole's baby... Baby Matthew..after I was done with the diaper cake I got dressed and went to the new 24 hour fitness gym in Rice Village... it is HUGE .... this was also the first time I went to a Zumba toning class (Zumba but with weights) lets just say I'm still sore... after Zumba I ran home took a shower and headed to the Baby Shower...super far but worth it ... Baby Matthew is due in only a few weeks eekkk can't wait... ok after Baby Shower I went to costco bought the little ones some chicken jerky ran home to meet david's sister mom and grandma for dinner we went to Mia Bella's ... it was an hour and a half wait to be seated but worth it ... Awesome food great company... We got back by 11 and lets just say I laid on my bed and crashed my body could no longer stand it ... I over worked it... Sunday I woke up late at 10 am... this is late for me believe me lol... went to zumba with Alba which everyone should know its never dull or easy she has soooo much energy .... so small but so much energy lol .... got home crashed had lunch at shake and steak or steak and shake I dont remember correct me if Im wrong lol.... went home and crashed a little bit more... studied a little... then went to see Water for elephants... The movie was GOOD but the BOOK WAS 1000 TIMES BETTER... I loved this weekend... I was able to hang out with people that I've missed dearly and dont worry summer is only 2 weekends away! Ana is ready to PARTY and party we shall ! ;D! wow I just got tired all over again just writing this ! How was ur weekend?

Estella mi vida mi nina mi amor

When I first met stella she became the part of my girl dog club when I volunteered at the hspca ..it was stella, mrs. bear, and dakota kota ..omg dakota was crazy these girls captured my heart by their docile personalities ...little by little estella started tugging at my heart more than the other dogs ... In her eyes I could see love and the need to love back ... Last week I was drained by thr fact that she was not with me without her home her bed her brother without her love ... Today as we celebrate her bday we give thanks for her heart and her unconditonal love she gives to each of us and even my friends ... She loves having company she receives everyone with a wag and a smile ... Thank u all for the bday wishes for my love ... Stella sends u all a sloppy kiss

I Did What?!

As I have matured with the years, I look back at the young naive girl I was during high school and the young woman I was right after high school. And I look back and laugh... I laugh at all the stuff I would believe and what I thought was real. Boy were always my weakness growing up... I believe too much and I said too much and I gave too much. As I remember all the crock they used to tell me and how I would trust their word with all my heart. I just want to go back and time and fight for myself to be respected. I want to take that girl and shake her and hold her and say this is not the truth is nothing but a piece of crock they are saying to see what you are willing to give. I've actually learned so much from those experience It has made me the woman I am today. I am no longer naive, I am no longer weak.. I now know that if I want respect I have to first respect myself and then demand others respect for me. I no longer believe the bs they say. I now play devils advocate. I want my children to learn from my mistakes but I dont know if I will shield them completely that way I would like. One person told me a long time a good... A smart person learns from their mistakes but an even smarter person learns from someone elses mistakes. Through all my mistakes I came out on the winning side... I am an independent woman...

Amazing How we Get Attached

Last night I realized how easily we get attached to someone, somedog or something. Yesterday Chacho and I were hurting We missed Stella so much. Chacho was so sad that he spent most of the evening in his kennel. If you know that little man well you will know that he thinks of that thing as the time out chair...but last night he walked to it lifted up his little paw open the door walked in and curled up. It was the saddest thing to see. He missed her so much. If you ever spend a day with us you will hear these three phrases about every 30 mins ... Chacho Gentle... Chacho Leave her alone... Chacho no! They have this game where they hunt each other they turn that apt into their running field.. Chacho some way or another always comes out to be the winner because if he doesnt and Stella wins he gets angry and growls ... I always say.. Chacho you sore loser. Chacho and Stella have been joined at the hip even if they are always play fighting. When I first got stella... chacho became a bit jealous like i guess every big brother would ... even to the point of getting on the bed right above where she was stretched out taking a nap and jumping on her stomach and also Chacho wanted to hump her all the time (this still goes on smh) she snapped at him once and he left her alone. So afterwards stella fell in love with her big tiny brother... She is the one who every morning wakes up chacho walks to her and she cleans the morning yikke off his eyes... she mothers him and he well indulges ... 3 mins later they begin the chases .... this is every morning.. They have not been apart for a long period of time... I think the longest time they have been apart has been one night when stella had to stay at the vet for her heartworm treatments(i'm telling you this kid has gone through alot) ...and chacho was beside himself... We still have 2 days in a half to go on this supposeded punishment and well lets see how we will hang... This morning chacho had to be left alone something he has not endure in a very long time .... It will be hard but we will get through this... even if its him in a kennel and me in my bed curled up wishing the days go by faster.

Stella My love

"She is my other eyes that can see above the clouds; my other ears that hear above the winds. She is the part of me that can reach out into the sea. She has told me a thousand times over that I am her reason for being; by the way she rests against my leg; by the way she thumps her tail at my smallest smile; by the way she shows her hurt when I leave without taking her. I think it makes her sick with worry when she is not along to care for me.When I am wrong, she is delighted to forgive. When I am angry, she clowns to make me smile. When I am happy, she is joy unbounded. When I am a fool, she ignores it. When I succeed, she brags. Without her, I am only another woman. With her, I am all-powerful. She is loyalty itself. She has taught me the meaning of devotion. With her, I know a secret comfort and a private peace. She has brought me understanding where before I was ignorant. Her head on my knee can heal my human hurts. Her presence by my side is protection against my fears of dark and unknown things. She has promised to wait for me... whenever... wherever - in case I need her. And I expect I will - as I always have. She is just my dog."
- - Gene Hill

At the moment for those who don't know I am going through the hardest pains possible...having to unattached myself from one of my dogs for a few days... Estella... For those who know me... my dogs are my life ... they are the children that I did not birth... they are my everything ... my loves, my soul mates, my kids, my reasons to struggle for ... the reasons I wake up in the mornings to go to work... They hold my hearts and I hold theirs. Last week there was an incident where Estella accidently charged at one of my neighbors and scratched his leg. Which in turn he called the cops and the cop did a police report with animal control. I was notified yesterday that Stella is going to have to be quaratined for the next 3 days... these are going to the hardest three days for since she is my teddy bear ... Everyone that I have told have been like STELLA??? WHAT??? Because those that are close to me know my baby she is the sweetest most gentle dog ...she has been through so much abuse in her short 3 years of life but she still has the sweetest disposition... my head is pounding from crying so much... I feel so helpless everything is out of my control ... So tonite I will take her and release her to my vet ... she will be only walked twice a day... confineded to a kennel ... and get no love... which is the only thing she ever asks for ... someone to love her.... Writing this is my only release of this pain but it just gets the tears flowing .... ugh ... why must people be such punks? over a scratch really? ugh....

Does this look like a face of a criminal?

An instructor? Me?! Eek! maybe! .

Well I just finished signing myself up for instructor training class for Zumba.. I can't believe I did it.. this was such a big step for me because I have thought long and hard about this ...because I am...even if you don't believe it and laugh I am actually shy... yes... me I am ...stop laughing ... I have been doing zumba for almost 8 months now and it has become an obsession for me... a healthy obsession... at the moment I am only going to classes on saturdays and sundays because of school but when I am out I go about 5 to 6 times a week... I know... I have no life lol... But zumba has been good to me... I have completely changed my life... starting with the fact that I am consistently going to the gym... I have not missed a week.. I eat better because if I dont I completely feel it when i am dancing... and It has brought something back into my life I had left behind ...DANCE... I have danced since I was a little girl.. tap..ballet... mexican folkoric dancing... you name it I did it... I was a very active dancer when I was growing up... I never had a free weekend because I was doing something... thanks to my mom... But as I grew up and started working and going to school part time.. I didnt have time to add dance to my schedule but zumba has helped me find that lost love. So let see where this new training takes me... I love zumba but its not the same as going to class and watching an instructor then ..going up to the front of the class ..and ...gasp....teaching the class. Its still a while before that even happens but I just took a small step in that direction... I'll keep you posted... ;)

Selena... My Childhood Idol

I can remember being in my friend Christina's room... putting in the cassette in the cassette player (..I know cassettes I'm old).. and just going crazy dancing to Selena's music.... Haha I even remembered one day referring to her butt saying... Omg Christina she has such a big butt... and her saying... "Ana don't say that because God is going to give you a big butt for judging her" lol... (hahaha) ... and then I had my friend Sandra who took being a fan of Selena to another level... she was in my opinion the biggest fan... from having all her cassettes... to her posters all over her wall... to even dressing like her.... Selena was our brittney spears.. our Spicy Girl... our Justin Beber... lol ... we connected to her because she was like us.. caramel colored skin...  she spoke spanish but also spoke english... and then that day happened... I remember hearing about the news from a radio playing at a mechanic shop...my mom was having work done on our caravan... everyone ran to the radio ... Selena Quintanilla had been shot... and then a few hours late... Selena Quintanilla has passed away ... I remember spending the night at Sandra's house and all we talked about was.. how we couldnt believe it.. watching news specials on her life... it was tragic.. such a young life ripped out of her... and now 16 years later ..her fans still remember her ... she still lives in our hearts in our homes .. in our music... whenever we hear her songs we still remember every lyric... every pause... every smile...

I'm ready to settle down now... but I am not going to settle for less

When you are a little girl you dream of the day when you will find your prince charming that will sweep you off your feet and you will live happily ever after ... nothing else will matter... as long as you have love.... fast forward about 20 years and now... you think about those simple times and smile and say...silly girl... if it only was that simple... With those twenty years I know I have aquired a vast knowledge of what I want and need in husband... its not about just love anymore ... I have gone through struggles and turmoils that only life will give you but I have been given so much more knowledge about who I am and what I need. First off, I need a man who is tuned into God. Knows him and fears him. God has always been a part of my life, he has blessed me in every way possible in life... I want someone who not only loves him..but take me into a deeper relationship with God. Second I need a man who can stand on their own two feet, a man's man. In life sometimes we dont know what were are suppose to do there is no road carved out for us, we have to be able to roll up our sleeves and get dirty and make our own road. But with that said, I also need someone who will be able to ask for help when needed. God made us human, which means we are not perfect and we will never be. We should be humble enough to say, I need you please help me.Another thing is that man needs to be educated. Like someone once told me, God has given doctors the ability to make the ugly pretty and the fatties skinny but remember this...you cant fix stupid...hahaha..blunt but true.. I want a man that I can hold a conversation with ...someone who will entice my mind ... make me ponder..make me research... make me want to expand my horizons ...  You can be pretty but if you don't intrigue me you will bore me... (bluntness but true) ... with all this said this is what I NEED...because I know I am not perfect too but this are the basic necessities for me... God knows my heart and knows the struggles that I have overcome... I am not you everyday woman .. I have overcome obstacles I have built my own bridges ... I need a man to stand by me... not in front or behind me... I need my equal ... God only knows what he has in store for .. but this list is my road map ..

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
— Marilyn Monroe

"suck the head; pinch the tail"..says the Crawfishholic

March is the time of year when crawfisholics come out of hiding... and I ...Ana...  am ... one of them! lol! I have always loved crawfish ettouffee but never had I experience a crawfish boil until ...David most graciously introduced to them... omg first try and I was hooked... The garlicer the better.. the spicier the better... ever since then every mid spring I emerge myself to friday nights at Ragin Cajun with a bucket to one side and fanta strawberry at the other.... I feel my southern belle coming out every time we have crawfish... I might not look like a southern belle while eating them but in my heart ... i FEEL it! ;) !...omg....i just thought of something... i have a deep cut in my left index finger... eeeek... thats going to sting... (mental note .. buy gloves) ... today I venture in wikipedia and I read up a little bit on crawfish... and I read that you can also keep them as a pet... and then I thought back to Finding Nemo... the little guy who spoke french and would clean the tank has to be a crawdaddy...u know the one who say's ..."I am ashamed" lol ... now...I want one... and I want to name him Bubba... or Bob ... wouldn't that be awesome.... I know I know ..
this girl has....

 a. too much time to think..

 and

2.she's CRAZY....

maybe I am ...but who cares... we only live once... and I want to live my life with as much animals as possible to love and adore...even if its a crawdaddy...

Bubba ----> (well an example of what I want) ;)

watcha think?

Dont Be Sad, You Whiny Bitches -GOGP

HaHa a little explicit for a Tuesday Morning Huh?! lol I know! 

But that quote has been in my head for the last few days... its from the movie Ghosts of Girlfriends Past. The last few days I've been going through some stuff and well I've had to think of stuff to make myself laugh to forget and move on. This has done the trick. Along with having a great friend to rant to... haha ...

What this quote did to me was think

1. Its not that bad it could be worse and

2 even if it was theres no reason to be sad or worry every thing will be worked out by God

We go through our day to day lives... always thinking of the well if I had this then I would be soooo happy... and If had this ... blah lah blah... whine whine whine... if you want this... well hey guess what... work for it.... do something about it... I read this other quote the other day...If you want something different... do something different ... because if you keep doing the same thing time and time again...your result will always be the same ... no?! I know I must put this into drive... I need change in my life... no more whining ... more doing.... no more tantrums  ...more executing of plans...

Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1

(not the way you would expect the blog to end with the title... but this is what its all about) ;) ...(this is pretty much me in a nutshell)

End of an Era... lol...too serious how about the end of Watagatapitusberry lol

Last week I ended my long term relationship with the "berry"! eek I know can you believe it?! I still can't the berry and I had been inseperable for the last 4 years. 2 Years with Tmobile and then another 2 years with Verizon... It's been a hard adjustment ...well... a hard 2 days... but I have a new pf...aka...phone friend lol...the Samsung Galaxy...and well its still a new relationship ..the honeymoon stage of our relationship... but boy am I glad to be in the new "in" technology. The awesome new apps... the colors... the soft strokes ... its my new baby... I'm still working out all the new technology... but I like it.. I've taken a few pics with it the quality is awesome... the only downside is...NO FLASH... I know... I don't get it either... you have an application that you dont have to go to the bank to cash a check but there is nothing with a flash... a little disappointing dontcha think? Especially me who loves to take pics of my little fatties ...aka chacho and stellies... taking candid pictures of David and then blackmailing him with them... taking pics of delicious food... hello... not all restaurants are well lit... lol.. o well I will have to learn to adjust. Today was the first day I didn't tote along the berry as a contact backup..so lets see how it goes... If I do ask you who this is on text... don't assume I dont love you its just that I got a new love! lol!